Already the 1st month in our new year, and will really tell you that January was something else. However, I continue to press on hoping everything will run smoothly.
My other half has been in the Hospital for almost a month now and, it has been very difficult. You want to spend as much time as possible with that person, but you do also need to make sure that you are getting funds in to pay for all your bills as well.
So right now even though everything seems to be a big hurdle in my way, I am trying my best to look at my glass as half full instead of half empty.
What really gets under my skin is that I hear so many people saying omg I am so sorry that you are going through all of that, I hope that everything gets better soon.. If you need anything let me know.
I have posted several things on raising money to help us mainly with the medical part of things and not one person has helped ..not even here's a dollar or five dollars its not much but its something.
Yes anything is helpful, when you are struggling. So now when people tell me that on oh please let me know if you need anything... I just let it go one ear out the other , basically you don't really mean it. It's like basically having someone sneeze and someone saying bless you. its just being courteous.
But enough of all that, I feel like I have gone way off my subject. Dwelling in the past.
People are people and they will continue to let you down, especially when you hold high standards to them, could be relatives, friends, even people you encounter on a daily basis.
And when you get disappointed in someone, its really hard to let your guard down on this person, because you know in the end it will happen again. so after a while you loose that connection with someone. Not really wanting to distance yourself from someone, but you do know that it would basically be drinking poison every time.. and you don't need to continue to let people bring you down.
I find this happens a lot in my life, its sad as I fell as I am really an easy person to get along with, however I do not turn the other cheek if someone slaps me and speak my thoughts..and many cant handle that and instead of saying I'm sorry I was wrong..they rather shut you off.
I look at families who share a special bond with each other, and basically want to be in each others lives, and then there are many who don't.
I do envy those who can have it all, and sadly don't think it will ever happen to me. But I try and press on and not dwell in the past, but I do still wish things were different.
So what are your thoughts on this post ...I would love to hear them.
Till my next post my amazing readers,
Thomas
